Unravelling the mystery

Sunday, December 19, 2010

When in ROME

One of the most amazing conversations that I listened to and wants to burn it deep down my memory lane.
This is from the movie "When in ROME"
conversation between dad her daughter, the bride (a few minutes before the wedding)
BRIDE: "When you married mom, did you ever think that you wouldn't make it ?",
DAD: "Honey, you are not gonna learn from my mistakes. You are gonna have to go out there and make your own. You could get your heart broken or you could have the greatest love affair that the world has ever known but you're not gonna know unless you try."
BRIDE: "But, what if there was a guarantee that you would never get hurt."
DAD: "May be. the passion is in the risk. Like I always say, IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE A BEAR. BE A GRIZZLY"

Monday, May 17, 2010

Le voyage entre Montréal et Toronto

It has been a really long time since I made the effort to pull myself to write in this space. I am not really certain why and what made me write today. There is this intolerable and relentless zeal of energy to narrate my first ever train ride in Canada. I rather dunno what to write but wanted to pen down something just to ensure that I do not fail to reopen my blog the next time hoping to look for something different to see apart from that good 'ol movie names. I have now watched exactly 2^{# the no. of movies in the previous post}[I am not kidding!].

It all began on 13th of May 2009 when myself and A started this long but enjoyable road trip to Kingston. It was a lot of fun for A since he got to visit Queens again and catch up with his buddies. The purpose of this trip was actually to attend our first conference away from good ol' Waterloo. Believe it or not, I was supposed to give a half-hour talk at this conference. Talks are fun (only in the literal sense) when one thinks it really matters. Boy oh boy, I realised how I hate those presentations which has got no attractive pictures/videos to draw the attention of the audience. I must admit that I still had loads of passion only for those abstract talks that involve Hilbert spaces or compact operators or semigroups. My talk went really smooth with some interesting questions at the end. I did mess up one of it, thanks to KM for correcting me. [Wait ! Looks like I am deviating from the subject].

I took this opportunity to visit my extended family at Montreal over the weekend. I think I was lucky to grab the $1.00 Mega bus ticket (Yes, thats exactly what it costs) from Kingston to Montreal that comes with a free wi-fi. Rishi is just a couple of weeks away from celebrating his first birthday on this planet. He cried all the time, whenever I took him in my arms, since I seem to look like a stranger to him. I wish he realises soon that I was there to receive him when he came home for the first time. Shruthi
is still that same cheerful 10 yr old kid, who prefers to be more than a grown up. She tells me, "You are so lucky because you are a grown up and not a kid like me." She is hyperactive atleast with the latest trends with due-respect in the context of gmail, orkut, yahoo mail and facebook. She thinks that nobody chats with her since she is a kid. (I could hear you murmur Aaaoooowww !! cho chweet inside your head) It is strange the way the next generation looks up at ours.

Spring time is the perfect weather that every Canadian would love to rather spend their time outside home. Finally here I am sitting on viarail train, on a pleasant spring afternoon from Montreal to Toronto. I spent the last hour and a half watching the Bollywood blockbuster, "Rock on". Part of my enthusiasm to write today comes from it. Other part of it is shared by Vikram Hazre and Chitra roy's sweet voice.

So, then what's special about this train ?

This reminded me of the good old Brindavan and Lalbagh express that runs daily between Chennai and Bangalore. I remember booking tickets purposefully in the last minute to lure myself with "Ponniyin selvan" six sizzling hours straight.
Weather takes a bumpy ride from severely boiling conditions to a nice chilly breeze combined with a quick 10 minute downpour, followed by a warm sunset and the chilly bangalore breeze.

Difference now being I cant smell the freshness in air anymore, since these trains only comes with huge windows which remain closed by hard ubreakable glasses that lets you peak at the outside view but not enjoy the cool breeze. We dont hear that thick whistling noise that engines used to make. Except for the unfrequent quick jerky movement that feels like the ground is shaking, you hardly realise that you are on a train that is actually moving. So much for the era of technology that we are now in, wi-fi internet makes us feel connected all the time even when the train is moving at 110 KPH. I love the leg room.

Unforutnately, the grand old lady sitting besides me would rather prefer a genuine conversation with me than browsing through the only 20 page journal which she is staring at for the last couple of hours. Sorry ma'm, I am not so used to be chatting in a train journey. There are plenty of things which could be enjoyed in silence rather than constantly using the muscles in the mouth.

There's something very peculiar about the lushy green outside which beckons me to keep looking at it. It is unassumingly hard to take my face away from it even for a moment. Sun remains bedazzled in the blue clouds. The view outside window is outstanding. Its like watching a movie which keeps moving only on one direction. I wonder what does it take to live just with the nature by yourself with all its beauty. It feels like you are hearing a beautiful story narrated by the heavens with a melodious sweet music that descends down in the background of this eye-capturing view. The serene blue waters on the left side of the train and breath-taking view of the sunset on my right makes this moment truely magical. I cant stop thinking Kalki's amazing narration of the beauty of mother nature on an island sandwiched between southern tip of India and Srilanka by name, "Mohini theevu" (மோகினி தீவு, http://www.scribd.com/doc/4889655/Kalki-Tamil-Novel-Mohini-Theevu). This day, the seventeenth of May would remain lively and scripted down my memory lane forever.

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Sunday, September 20, 2009

Movies in summer

I should probably not do this ! I just thought of putting down all the movies i watched so far in summer . I literally went nuts. Animation movies are probably the most ones not to mention romantic comedies, chidren/fantasy/sci-fi movies.
6 for the weekend and 2 for the week.

Animation/Children/fantasy
1. The road to el-dorado.
2. Scooby-doo ! The mystery begins
3. Bridge to terabithiya !
4. Chronicles of narnia , The lion, the witch and the wardrobe.
5. Chronicles of narnia , Prince caspian
6. Up
7. The lion king 1 1/2
8. The ant bully.
9. Meet the robinson's.
10. Night at the museum: The smithsonian.

Science-fiction/adventure/Action/thriller
1. Push
2. Land of the lost
3. Indiana jones and the kingdom of crystal skull.
4. National treasure.
5. Fast and furious.

Telugu movie
1. Konchem ishtam konchem kashtam

Tamil movie
1. Pokkisham
2. Poo
3. Nadodigal
4. Pasanga

Romantic comedies
1. Just like heaven
2. I hate valentine's day
3. He's just not that into you.
4. The lake house.
5. Seducing Mr. Perfect.
6. The proposal
7. The hangover.

More in the fall

Romance
1. Accidental husband.
2. It could happen to you.

Animation
1. winx club

Friday, February 06, 2009

How to say "No" ?

Fortunately, I still haven't stained my relation with my boss. If not actually, but I have atleast succeeded in making her believe that I am not slacking out. We had this inconvenient but convincingly presumable conversation today about "Indians dunno how to nod their head to say a No?" It so happened that I didn't grasp a point that she made in our last meeting. She was probably frustrated but politely put it across to me that I still nod the head the same way, for a yes and a no. At that very moment, I just couldn't realise where the mistake was and I nodded again. She smiled,"You are doing it again!".


After coming back to my desk, I gave a pretty serious thought about it and shared this comment with A and S. Both of them laughed out loud. Apparently S's dad faces this problem with his Indian clients and the consequence of which results in a disastrous conclusion that "Indians have a tendency to promise things that can't be delivered". After this quick comment, S tried his best to convince me that,(in action) if you move your head up and down, it symbolically means a "Yes", but left and right movement means a "No". A was laughing even louder watching this. S points at me and asked me to nod my head to say a "No". I tried to be as natural and as instinctive as possible and nodded my head. It took me a while to figure out that I was in no-man's land. I soon,started laughing at myself. The other day when A, S and me went to a talk by a guy from Cornell about Adaptive finite element meshing(God knows what it is !! ), which although none of us understood even a bit of it and even after knowing that for some unknown reasons, I kept nodding at the talk as if I would get up and say,"I exactly knew what you are talking about". S, sitting right next to me, quickly scribbled something on a piece of paper and passed it on to me which said, "Stop nodding your head, I know that you don't get it." I had to literally control my stomach from busting out into the biggest laughter I could ever imagine.

Indians have a strange way of dealing things. I am not very proud of it, but am a part of it anyways.For a long while, our childhood education had groomed around the aspect of giving respect to the elderly. In some wierd sense, the inner conscience knows that nodding the head to say a 'No' is like being disrespectful. So, we are almost never taught how to nod our heads to say a 'No'. Its probably high time to learn this simple rule in life which makes your communication with peers and supers simple, elegant but very effective. If you don't understand/accept/agree upon something, its absolutely alright to say 'No, I don't get it' by not only saying it aloud, but also nodding your head from left to right. End of the day, its probably not the best of the ways but a lesson well learnt.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Movie mania

I suddenly realised that I have been absent in this zone for a while. Its holiday time of the year when those small white flurries are all around the park. Last year around the same time, we made a short 3-day trip to Ottawa. Sadly, we ran short of drivers this time. It turns out that I indeed forgot how to spend the holiday season.

I knew the lazy part of me is gonna take over completely not giving me a single moment to think abt school. and so it did. It all started with the T.V.Show named "Heroes". By far the most absorbing, science-fiction, thriller/Horror that I have ever seeen. Driven by the mere anxiety of whats gonna happen next, I can't believe, I spent 23 hours non-stop and finished the whole of season-1. What if somebody has unusual abilities like flying, automatically healing any cut or wound, knowing how to break the space/time continuum, reading others minds, painting the future, etc etc. Its not only amusing but also creates an un-noticable passion in you to look for what next ? That drove me for 2 solid days in my home theatre. Towards the end, I was obsessed with it that I wanted to finish it at any cost. Luckily, I did survive without nightmares.

Just to pull myself out of this, I watched a good number of movies. For some reasons, its funny when I think about myself, that I find joy in animation movies. I wanna put up here the list of all movies (shud be fun to read this in future) Ratatouille, Antz, Bee, Scooby doo and the Goblin king, Happy feet, Madagascar-1, Madagascar-Escape 2 Africa. I enjoyed every bits and pieces of all these ones. I dunno if its natural to have a flair for animation movies at this age. I am sure my roomies had a really tough time putting up with me in these days when I used to laugh my lungs out and they get really annoyed looking at me. I definitely think its not my fault. Pixar, Dreamworks, does a good job in making these films with a strong social theme behind it. Ratatouille is about a rat that teaches cooking, Antz shows how to fight against colonisation, Bee brings about an unsual love affair between a Bee and a Human(its funny the way this happens), I dont need to describe my childhood hero scooby doo, I never knew Penguins are so talented untill I watched Happy feet. Madagascar-2 is top notch that shows what it takes for caged animals to find their family back (Its really moving).


My next favorite is the set of romantic comedies. What happens in Vegas ? is the most romantic movie that I have ever watched. Ashton and Cameron diaz try the most vulgourous things to make their marriage not work and in the process they fall in love. Slumdog millinoaire is worth a watch. Kudos to Danny boyle for surviving the Indian. Its a bit disgusting but solid portrayal of What it takes for a boy from slum to win a million.


After watching "A Beautiful Mind" for the second time, I did figure out what it takes to be John Nash. Final few words of his speech after winning the Nobel prize, "Its Only in mysterious equations of love that logical reasons can be found. I hit it only because of you, You are the reason I am. You are all my reasons.Thank you", And you see the Professor's wife shedding a secret tear with a radiant smile on her face - the audience in standing ovation.WOW !! It can't get any better than that.

I managed to find Scorpion king - 2 was by far the only action movie in the list. Its not that I don't like action, but I am unable to put up with violent scenes these days. My soul fails to recognize the feel good factor after two hours of an action film that ends up in utrocious killing. I can't somehow digest the ruthless killing attempts shown on big screen. There's probably a lot more to come in this zone later ....

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Happy days

Before getting started, I would like to give the background of what I want to say here.
"Happy days" is a very recent movie in Telugu well received by an eclectic mix of south Indians. My mother tongue is Tamil. Although Tamil and Telugu are amidst the same neighbourhood, these 2 languages are very different in dialects, scripts and have different ethnicities. I heard excellent remarks about this movie and was longing to watch this from time immemorial. I am especially bad at learning new languages and the very reason this movie was in Telugu put me off every time. I bugged my roommate sufficiently long, when at last today he sent me the link of this movie WITH SUBTITLES in English. Thanks to Ravi.
Happy days is about a bunch of fresher's who start their bachelor's in mechanical engineering in CBIT, getting united by the tag of 'F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P' during the usual ragging sessions. Starting from friendship, Ragging sessions, gala in first year, beauty and brains, love at first sight, jealousy, chut-chut(small) fights amidst friends, passion to try new things, Cricket game between seniors (claimed to have state champions) Vs Juniors (who finally wins the game), ballroom sessions all the way till campus interviews and the farewell day, all the bits and pieces of emotions is well-crafted into a jigsaw puzzle that makes you tightly bound to the seat for a good couple of hours waiting to unveil the climax. Kudos to the director!! It left me with nostalgic memories of my good old college days.

I gave a little serious thought about recollecting my college days and tried my best to relate most of the events in the movie. Surprisingly, I found a good chunk of it missing in my life. I managed to get into one of the famous schools known very well amidst the elite Indians, lining up right in the midst of the 5 Indian Institute of Technologies. I am one of those poor souls who got ragged right on the first day, when I went to meet Rat, my sole inspiration right from childhood. Also the eventful 2 hours of copying notes for a 3rd year elec. engineering class senior. I distinctly remember crying in saraswathi temple after getting ragged by seniors for showing me the porn magazines which I hadn’t seen till that day. I could actually sit down and count the number of times, I was ragged. It wasn’t much. Might be because I was the neighbour to Mr.G.Su, the chief warden that time. I joined the department of art and decoration and got introduced to a big chunk of people (Reminder: I should write someday about Art n Dee) .
Although, I was tripped with 'n' number of girls,(I should accept, I did manage to have a crush per year), the most unfortunate thing being, I was never actually in a relationship with somebody. Crushes didn’t really make it to the next stage. I admit, I probably remained geeky and spent most of my time worrying about my acads, or rather wondering how to merge with spray painting. Looking back at my orkut friends list, I really wonder how did I manage to maintain such a high girl:boy ratio. But the truth is I never had a girl friend, rather I should put it as “I never had the time to spend with a(one) girl”. I blame it on the bus(y)ness created by the course structure at BITS that didn’t let me have my own time. Wait a second !! Psenti sem (Last semester on Campus) is probably the time when I should have done something creative. May be the feeling of getting old mixed with scripting my final few months of college life could have made me not enjoy the libertines of time. BITS remains still afresh in my memories. I should probably come back to this topic someday.

Graffiti (A one-liner of sweet memories):
Orientation week, first year wing, One-pitch cricket outside billy’s room, oil spa treatment and my meeting with G.Su, fresher’s party, trip back home during oasis 2000, ThermoD, My Gen.B textbook got stolen during a momentary power failure, Art ‘n’ Dee, KG Mess, First sem c.g.-9.05, Best PR (85), Krishna Bhawan’s nite, first year APOGEE, dilemma of taking a comp.sci or a eee dual, Major c.g.drop after 2nd sem, Shadowz wing formation(New-wing upstairs facing insti), Geetha B’s Report writing class, 1st Oasis -2001, .........(owing to current busy schedule am stopping it here. Look for the rest later !!!! )

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Was it real(ity) or a dream ?

I am all set to confess here that something is wierd in my dreams. It is back to one of those good old days of having haunted dreams, and when you wake up in the morning hoping that nothing serious has happened, only for you to find out the nostalgics of living thru such dreams is a dreadful experience. I am anxious to figure out how these dreams fit into the exact place miles before it was supposed to happen that way.


Before getting into this I should say that am really impressed with S's blog only for her mere taste for words and I am a fan of her writings. I admit I do learn a lot from her. I found a tamil cription on the right panel that motivated to me to see what that stands for. "மனதின் வார்ைதகள்". When I digged deep into it, I got stuck on this blog about Ph.D . I am definitely a victim to this thought and was laughing at myself after reading thru this. I frankly admit that the only thought process that keeps me driving is this."I am unworthy of doing a PhD”, “My supervisor is soon going to find out that I am not capable of doing research”, “I am going to be thrown out of the grad school soon”. A satisfied feeling of not being lonely in this world with this syndrome made my day today.


'T' started freaking out one day about a day dream that she had. I consoled her saying usually day dreams aren't and will never have any effect on the real life. But I am not quite sure if thats the same with the dreams we have in the night. Think about how often would you wake up in the middle of the night just because you didnt wanna see the next scene of the film running in your dream. I have had horrible incidents like that in the past. For a moment, I thought that frequency has decreased owing to the incredible 'busy'ness of my life this fall.


Due to my poor memory of remembering dates, I had frequently checked the brithday reminder of one of my closest friend "Sheikh" just in case not to miss it. I knew I am still a day ahead and that night I had this terrible dream where I felt like I was in the middle of nowhere standing right next to my friend, who was receiving birthday gifts from all around the world except from me. He turns his face towards me and with a gentle smile in his face reckoning that I obviously forgot to get a gift for him. I'd rather spend the whole day with him, instead of reminiscing that scintillating moment throughout the day. I soon woke up realising that I am atleast a good 2,00,00.. (dunno how many 0's to addd) miles away from him. That morning, quickly checked my mail just to ensure that I really didint miss his bday and so was it. The following night, I saw him online and wished him just to find myself in a curse. Apparently, his bday was the previous day and my birthday alarm was showing a false date. I narrated my dream and he laughed aloud in the office, when I was screaming at myself for having such a dream.


I made a bold faced full stop to my investigations into it and got back into my bed with a sultry feeling. After couple of nights, I saw somebody vomitting just before my eyes. May be for some reasons am either closely related to that person or may be not,I went to help out and in my futile attempt to avoid cleaning, I found myself spoiling my hands. Just that moment I realised it was another dream. The next day, I panicked when I heard from 'L', that indeed it so happened that way to her because of eating outside. I cursed myself and that triggered me to understand little closely about dreams and why do they arise. Atleast till date, I haven't tried to make sense out of dreams but I have always wondered why is it that it never made any sense. Especially those ocassional night dreams after I succesfully crack an exam, those few mistakes which might have made me loose a couple of marks, those boomeranging epsilon and delta's would come dilly-dallying before my eyes would annoy me, finally, leading me to the obvious solution that dreams can't be interpreted.


Does dream ever make sense ? If it never does, then why in first place it arises ? Why do you have this feeling that you have already seen this somewhere, when you get stumbled upon soemthing thats hard and unreasonable in life to believe. I am not quite sure if I have found a open question in my research, but I am sure of having found one here for my life. !!!!