Changes, changes and more changes ....

Theres a lot happening in my life. And whenever I think of stopping for a minute and taking a look back into the last 6 months of my life, it looks like the dreadful typhoon had just passed thru'. Its a wonder to know how the mood swings from one end to another so quickly. It was end of march when I realised that my dreams have been beaten to death. Early Apr, I recd an amazing news from one of the fore father's who groomed my first step. I was almost set to deny it or perharps postpone the offer b'cos of insane reasons. I was always under the false pretence that my dreams have been shattered to pieces and there's no glue available to stitch them up. I still can't forget that dreadful night of quick talks with Dindu and sheikh which turned me upside down. It was a serious eye-opener. After talks with my frnds I got reassured that things are possible if neatly worked out. I can pursue my dreams and still enjoy all the priveleges that it once asked for. It does look like the first stone was not really turned upside down, rather I have put down my feet so firmly on it that things have started opening up. To more precisely put it. It was really my big fat second stone called CAT that had actually awakened my deeper sense to realise the amount of passion hidden inside the first stone. The idea is clear that I need to put an end to my materialistic thirsts as it was never drenching me. Rather, the feeling of satisfaction never creeped into me on comparing the hike in my monthly payslip or rather the numbers in the smith barney's acct. never appealed me. I knew there's no end to the feeling of asking for more.


There's still a long way to go to open the door and set myself free for the next 4 years. Have I been day dreaming ?? When I sit down and imagine myself after those 4 yrs and step back into life, I don't see much ahead. Whats gonna be my future ?? Its a huge question mark ? There's something inside me that gives me big guts to go for it. I am just driven purely by my passion. Just as said in Alchemist. "this whole world turns arnd and aids in reaching your destiny." It all depends on how strong you are driving it. The road mabbe full of ups and downs or mabbe there's no road at all. Still what matters most is how much you relish on your dreams.

An eclectic mix of events happnd arnd me in the middle of April. I got the opportunity to travel for the first time to the so called Uncle sam's house. The job that was given to me was pretty clear and indeed was slogging there big time. I managed to spend some time talking to my frnds about future prospects that made my plans more and more clear. Things fell in place for me to freak out couple of weekends with a trip to LA - the 12 hour drive along the west coast, and a trip to the SFO downtown, sausalito and muir woods with couple of gals made life little more interesting. Mabbe this has added the reqmnt for the curent trend in a marriage alliance search but am sure the next 4 yrs is gonna rock it back and turn my resume upside down.

Its time to draw a mark and take a U-turn and go back to my good old college days. Haaah ... The grass there looks so green. There will be some tests, assignments, mid-terms and compre exams. Looks like its not much... Am gonna enter the thick crest of knowledge called "Research". This term loooks goad damn big and my dictionary didnt have an entry for this before. Its time to back myself and say that I am gonne enter the world of huge tunnnels which might lead to some closed boundaries. To peal of its skin and rip apart and come out is something thats really challenging... Not as dumb as sitting idle before the computer and generally browsing thru without even knowing what you wanna do.

Is that all that I want in life ? or Am for sure foresee some sharp curves / bends in this skimful path

Pls remember to post the blog once u have written it. don't keep it for months together like this one .