One step more . . .

I thought it was high time now, to get back and look at what I had scratched previously. Similar piece of advice from many of my friends is not to write blogs that run for pages. I wasn't really sure how well did I drive the point which I wanted to in the previous two blogs.

Yesterday, I finally managed a big heap on top of the first stone that I had on my way. I gotto wait for another month, to really know if I have cleared it. Atleast my mind is in a clear state about what to do next ? Got 1 more month from now to take a run up for the second jump. The even more painful thing with the second stone is that I got to wait for a month and a half more to know if i fell down hurting my ankle or crossed another stone on the way. I have started relying too much on time to decide things for me. Is that a correct strategy or am I just convincing myself with an invalid reason. Atleast I hope I will realise what to do as time rolls by. Maybe becos I exactly know what to do for the next one month. I also do know what to do for today. My hard disk drive got crashed and I gave it for service last week. All the time when my laptop was there with me, I never cared even a bit for him. I missed my laptop too much last week. Hopefully my guy will come back to action today.

I wanted to put down something about my boldness in putting off celebrations last weekend.Considering my previous bashy but painful experience around same time last year, I really didnt wanna make it up this time. But things have changed so much between the last one and this one. I believe , that I knew from deep down the burrows, that I am goin to miss it big time. I prepared mentally for it for quite sometime. When the day arrived, I was invited to my friend's place for a bash with them. Took my time , and went coolly and filled up my stomach and killed time watching Vasoolraja M.B.B.S in parallel with Hariharan's fabulous display of his vocals. Just didnt feel indifferent at all at that time in Kuka's house. They were so go damn kind and it looked like they already knew the thing that I missed this time. Jus when I was about to leave, Kuka's parents made me believe that they were more like my parents, gave me a lovely gift and home made sweets as well. Felt out of the world. Got blessings from them . All fit and fine went back yday and stepped across my first stone. Then came the most amazing time that I spent leaving apart my usual mid afternoon sleep filled with a horrible dream. I visited Hema Ma'm and their family. Was extremely glad to know that I am goin to meet them inside N.A.L for the first time. I did miss company at that time. Went on for a lovely long evening walk gazing past the calm and relaxed N.A.L environment. I felt like this is the place I wanna land up to. Even when I was strolling past those lovely colorful flower pots inside the campus, I didnt feel a thing. I met sir and ma'm and cute ishita. They requested me to join them in bursting crackers in the night. Thats when a pinch of sense of missing something crept into my mind. Later spoke to my mom and dad abt the day. Thats when I felt I could see the difference in their voice too realising the fact that both their sons ditched them on a lovely ocassion. With home grub on its way, i dun think I can redo the pain that I went through, but I can ensure now that am not gonna miss anymore. Waiting for the big thing coming in January. Keeping my fingers crossed hoping that nothing else comes up in the way.

I think from now on, its high time to catch up the tide I missed. Will take off here now. Gotto put in a lot to make my dream of flying past the second stone come true.